1 00:01:23,940 --> 00:01:28,280 Melissa, smart people told me writing and making amends is a part of the 2 00:01:28,280 --> 00:01:29,280 process. 3 00:01:31,360 --> 00:01:36,380 I'm not sure if you'll ever read this, but somehow writing you keeps me honest 4 00:01:36,380 --> 00:01:37,380 with myself. 5 00:01:44,920 --> 00:01:47,160 People say that it gets better with time. 6 00:01:51,530 --> 00:01:55,090 they'll even quote some canned prayer or bible verse they stole off of a cheap 7 00:01:55,090 --> 00:01:55,530 card 8 00:01:55,530 --> 00:02:02,390 but as 9 00:02:02,390 --> 00:02:06,270 time passed friends and family became strangers 10 00:02:06,270 --> 00:02:11,490 i hated anyone's happiness 11 00:02:11,490 --> 00:02:15,630 and even became jealous of their strength 12 00:02:20,460 --> 00:02:23,420 How does a person even describe that kind of pain? 13 00:02:23,660 --> 00:02:25,300 Alright guys, we got about an hour. 14 00:02:27,560 --> 00:02:30,320 That kind of resentment that turns to rage. 15 00:02:32,060 --> 00:02:35,360 They'll never tell you how cold and empty it leaves you. 16 00:02:36,880 --> 00:02:39,440 That it feels just like fear. 17 00:02:42,200 --> 00:02:44,180 And you don't recognize who you are. 18 00:03:12,310 --> 00:03:13,610 Let's spend the day in bed. 19 00:03:14,050 --> 00:03:15,050 Oh, God. 20 00:03:15,510 --> 00:03:16,590 Don't tempt me. 21 00:03:19,150 --> 00:03:21,110 What were we thinking trying to start a business? 22 00:03:22,190 --> 00:03:23,910 We were going to be millionaires. 23 00:03:27,970 --> 00:03:28,970 We're going to be fine. 24 00:03:31,030 --> 00:03:32,030 Thank you. 25 00:03:32,210 --> 00:03:33,210 For what? 26 00:03:34,070 --> 00:03:35,070 Taking that job. 27 00:03:38,650 --> 00:03:41,510 Oh, God. Can you get him ready this morning? I really need a jog. 28 00:03:41,820 --> 00:03:44,320 I can, and I will. 29 00:03:49,820 --> 00:03:51,880 Hey, it's time to get up. 30 00:03:52,480 --> 00:03:54,120 I won't feel longer. 31 00:03:55,280 --> 00:03:59,000 Ain't gonna happen. We're already running late, and I gotta swing by and 32 00:03:59,000 --> 00:04:00,300 feed Mrs. Smith's cat. 33 00:04:01,660 --> 00:04:03,300 Yeah, they're still doing that. 34 00:04:03,900 --> 00:04:04,900 She's in the hospital. 35 00:04:06,360 --> 00:04:07,360 Come on, hustle. 36 00:04:44,780 --> 00:04:45,780 Breakfast is ready. 37 00:04:45,860 --> 00:04:47,120 I need you to hustle. 38 00:04:47,800 --> 00:04:49,280 Don't need you missing the bus again. 39 00:04:49,480 --> 00:04:50,480 Dad, relax. 40 00:04:51,780 --> 00:04:52,780 Look at you. 41 00:04:53,360 --> 00:04:55,140 You're like a little ninja, aren't you? 42 00:04:56,720 --> 00:04:58,360 All right. Eat your breakfast. 43 00:05:17,200 --> 00:05:18,200 Have a great day, honey. 44 00:05:18,480 --> 00:05:19,480 Love you. 45 00:05:19,500 --> 00:05:20,500 Love you, too. 46 00:05:21,500 --> 00:05:24,140 Mom, Daddy's crunchy again. 47 00:05:24,740 --> 00:05:26,660 And my eggs are burnt. 48 00:05:26,900 --> 00:05:31,660 They're not burnt. They're seared. And what have I told you about snitches? 49 00:05:32,320 --> 00:05:34,560 They get stitches. That's right. They do. 50 00:05:38,700 --> 00:05:39,700 Thank you. 51 00:05:40,500 --> 00:05:41,520 Gotta go take a shower. 52 00:05:41,780 --> 00:05:42,820 Have a great day. 53 00:05:52,800 --> 00:05:53,800 Cody. 54 00:05:54,240 --> 00:05:55,240 Cody. 55 00:05:55,540 --> 00:05:56,900 Pay attention for the bus, okay? 56 00:06:41,750 --> 00:06:42,910 Morning, Brad. Good morning. 57 00:06:44,410 --> 00:06:45,570 Oh, hey. 58 00:06:46,090 --> 00:06:50,510 While I got you here, I've got an open shift on Sunday if you want to take it. 59 00:06:50,730 --> 00:06:51,730 Put me into overtime. 60 00:06:52,550 --> 00:06:54,470 I'll make sure the overtime's taken care of. 61 00:06:55,010 --> 00:06:57,890 Nice. I appreciate you thinking of me. Yeah, no problem. Here's your log. 62 00:06:58,110 --> 00:07:01,110 Whoa. Hey, I'm the one that authorizes overtime? 63 00:07:02,550 --> 00:07:03,550 Hi. 64 00:07:03,790 --> 00:07:05,730 You the SEAL guy we hired a couple weeks ago? 65 00:07:06,010 --> 00:07:07,010 Yes, sir. 66 00:07:09,010 --> 00:07:10,010 Robert. 67 00:07:10,190 --> 00:07:14,390 Brad. I had been working here for two years, never seen a Navy guy apply 68 00:07:14,390 --> 00:07:15,810 before, much less a SEAL. 69 00:07:16,330 --> 00:07:17,430 Well, it was a first for everything. 70 00:07:17,990 --> 00:07:21,870 You know, after college, I thought about doing the whole Navy SEAL thing, but you 71 00:07:21,870 --> 00:07:22,870 know how that goes. 72 00:07:23,390 --> 00:07:24,810 Doctor said I had bad arches. 73 00:07:26,870 --> 00:07:30,850 Oh, are you a gamer? Because last year, my team finished 18th at the convention. 74 00:07:31,050 --> 00:07:32,450 We're down a sniper right now. 75 00:07:33,670 --> 00:07:34,670 Robert, right? 76 00:07:34,690 --> 00:07:37,850 I really need to get started on these patrols by my finishing time. Oh, yeah, 77 00:07:37,870 --> 00:07:38,870 man, I get it. It's just, uh... 78 00:07:39,150 --> 00:07:45,390 Just so you know, the guys from the office on my team tend to get a little 79 00:07:45,390 --> 00:07:46,390 more overtime. 80 00:07:49,370 --> 00:07:50,690 Wow, that is tempting. 81 00:07:51,170 --> 00:07:52,170 I'll be on channel three. 82 00:07:52,770 --> 00:07:53,770 Sounds good. 83 00:08:09,300 --> 00:08:14,000 Melissa, I've got $1.23 for the gas in my car. Can you put some money on the 84 00:08:14,000 --> 00:08:16,260 card so I can sleep next to my wife tonight? 85 00:08:17,480 --> 00:08:19,320 No problem, sweetie. I'll put 50 on it. 86 00:08:19,740 --> 00:08:21,320 Hey, other phones ringing. Gotta go. 87 00:08:26,860 --> 00:08:28,140 Lance, Flowers may help you. 88 00:08:29,160 --> 00:08:30,160 Speaking. 89 00:08:31,660 --> 00:08:32,660 Yes. 90 00:08:33,159 --> 00:08:35,940 Yes, I have some outstanding invoices that should cover it. If you could just 91 00:08:35,940 --> 00:08:37,039 give us one more month, I... 92 00:08:38,100 --> 00:08:39,940 Yes, but no. 93 00:08:45,100 --> 00:08:47,660 So you're telling me that either we're going to lose our house or we're going 94 00:08:47,660 --> 00:08:48,660 to lose our business? 95 00:08:52,460 --> 00:08:54,320 Yes, I do understand your position. 96 00:08:55,640 --> 00:08:56,640 Thank you. 97 00:09:22,540 --> 00:09:24,400 Hey, honey, can you grab the salt and pepper, please? 98 00:09:24,640 --> 00:09:25,640 Sure. 99 00:09:26,840 --> 00:09:28,040 Oh, thank you. You're welcome. 100 00:09:28,980 --> 00:09:30,100 Cody, you want to say grace tonight? 101 00:09:30,440 --> 00:09:31,440 Yeah. All right. 102 00:09:34,420 --> 00:09:38,660 God is good. God is great. Thank you for the food on our plate. Amen. Oh, and 103 00:09:38,660 --> 00:09:41,200 keep Mom and Dad safe and help them with the garden shop. 104 00:09:41,440 --> 00:09:42,440 Amen. Amen. 105 00:09:42,720 --> 00:09:43,720 Thank you, Cody. 106 00:09:46,000 --> 00:09:48,000 Do you remember Stanley? 107 00:09:48,960 --> 00:09:50,520 Your Navy friend that you used to ride with? 108 00:09:51,180 --> 00:09:52,180 Mm-hmm. 109 00:09:53,439 --> 00:09:54,880 I talked to him this morning. 110 00:09:55,160 --> 00:09:56,160 Oh, how's he doing? 111 00:09:56,840 --> 00:10:00,420 Good. He's heading down to the Gulf for a fishing trip and wants to swing by the 112 00:10:00,420 --> 00:10:02,720 house. Is he going to stay for lunch or dinner? 113 00:10:05,060 --> 00:10:06,060 No. 114 00:10:09,040 --> 00:10:10,520 He's stopping by to pick up the bike. 115 00:10:11,860 --> 00:10:13,120 I sold it to him this morning. 116 00:10:13,320 --> 00:10:15,420 Honey, I'm sorry. I know how much you love that bike. 117 00:11:19,600 --> 00:11:20,600 What were you dreaming about? 118 00:11:21,440 --> 00:11:27,840 I was in this attack, and we were being overrun. 119 00:11:30,480 --> 00:11:33,260 Denver was there, only he was still alive. 120 00:11:36,000 --> 00:11:37,000 I'm sorry. 121 00:11:38,140 --> 00:11:42,460 Damn, I never get my rifle to work right in these dreams. 122 00:11:45,240 --> 00:11:47,240 Damn, I really miss him. 123 00:11:57,740 --> 00:11:58,740 How you doing, man? 124 00:11:59,260 --> 00:12:00,300 I'm doing great. 125 00:12:01,460 --> 00:12:03,520 See, you still got this piece of shit. 126 00:12:04,380 --> 00:12:09,060 Yeah, I figure once Cody gets a little bit older, we're going to rebuild it 127 00:12:09,060 --> 00:12:11,620 together. And she is looking good. 128 00:12:12,000 --> 00:12:13,280 Come on, man. You know me. 129 00:12:13,800 --> 00:12:14,800 Oh, yeah. 130 00:12:15,340 --> 00:12:19,600 I know you're going through some stuff right now, but we've all been there. 131 00:12:20,220 --> 00:12:23,220 Hey, just think of me as her babysitter. 132 00:12:26,120 --> 00:12:28,720 We'll get her back once you get to a better place. 133 00:12:29,740 --> 00:12:30,740 Thank you. 134 00:12:31,800 --> 00:12:33,140 Hey, you want a beer? 135 00:12:33,440 --> 00:12:34,440 No, I'm good. 136 00:12:34,480 --> 00:12:35,560 You sure? They're cold. 137 00:12:36,440 --> 00:12:37,419 Yeah, yeah. 138 00:12:37,420 --> 00:12:39,500 Man, I can't do that anymore. You got anything else? 139 00:12:40,060 --> 00:12:41,660 I got water for pussies. 140 00:12:42,040 --> 00:12:44,760 Yeah, well, I got money for a little Johnson. 141 00:12:45,040 --> 00:12:46,700 Trade you. All right. 142 00:12:48,640 --> 00:12:50,980 So what's going on with your leg? 143 00:12:52,140 --> 00:12:54,140 Eh, it's actually my lower back. 144 00:12:54,930 --> 00:13:00,950 Fucking VA, man. You know, you remember when I lifted Steven's fat ass over that 145 00:13:00,950 --> 00:13:03,370 wall in Solder City and messed up my back? 146 00:13:03,810 --> 00:13:07,970 Yeah, that was the day you took a round in the vest. Yeah, I got lucky on that 147 00:13:07,970 --> 00:13:09,390 one. Hey, man. 148 00:13:10,130 --> 00:13:11,530 I need to ask you something. 149 00:13:11,990 --> 00:13:12,990 What's up? 150 00:13:13,930 --> 00:13:16,150 You, uh, you ever have nightmares? 151 00:13:17,490 --> 00:13:20,710 Like, uh, considering all the stuff we've been through? 152 00:13:21,090 --> 00:13:23,110 I mean, I guess it'd be weird if you didn't, huh? 153 00:13:25,420 --> 00:13:28,020 But have you started to like him? 154 00:13:30,140 --> 00:13:31,380 That's why God made whiskey. 155 00:13:38,240 --> 00:13:39,240 That was fun. 156 00:13:39,740 --> 00:13:40,860 I'm sorry, honey. 157 00:13:41,180 --> 00:13:44,160 Yeah. See if we can keep it in the budget from now on. 158 00:13:46,080 --> 00:13:47,120 He paid cash? 159 00:13:50,720 --> 00:13:51,720 Good morning, killer. 160 00:13:52,000 --> 00:13:54,370 Morning. Can I watch a history channel? 161 00:13:54,730 --> 00:13:56,210 I don't know. Is there something wrong with your eyes? 162 00:13:56,430 --> 00:13:57,430 May I? 163 00:13:57,850 --> 00:13:59,470 There's some work to do in the yard first. 164 00:14:01,010 --> 00:14:02,010 Not again! 165 00:14:02,990 --> 00:14:04,870 Damn it, Melissa! Did you pay the power bill? 166 00:14:05,090 --> 00:14:06,090 With what, Brad? 167 00:14:06,150 --> 00:14:07,650 We don't have any money! Jesus Christ! 168 00:14:09,050 --> 00:14:10,790 Do you know they're not open until Monday? 169 00:14:12,750 --> 00:14:15,790 It's okay, Dad. I don't have to watch TV. 170 00:14:28,560 --> 00:14:29,560 I'm sorry. 171 00:14:30,840 --> 00:14:31,840 I'm sorry. 172 00:14:35,260 --> 00:14:40,740 Look, it's not like we can cook anything here anyways. 173 00:14:41,640 --> 00:14:42,680 We got money now. 174 00:14:44,120 --> 00:14:46,440 Why don't we all just go out to dinner? 175 00:14:47,320 --> 00:14:48,560 I think we could all use it. 176 00:14:50,560 --> 00:14:53,380 Well, now that you mention it, Sherry and Mike did ask if we wanted to try a 177 00:14:53,380 --> 00:14:54,380 new restaurant with them. 178 00:14:57,280 --> 00:14:58,340 Sherry the vegetarian? 179 00:14:58,860 --> 00:15:02,020 She said they have a huge menu and I've heard that their steaks are awesome. 180 00:15:03,700 --> 00:15:05,700 Steak does sound pretty awesome. 181 00:15:06,340 --> 00:15:10,260 But sitting with your snowflake lived hard friends doesn't. 182 00:15:10,460 --> 00:15:12,520 Brad. What? They are. 183 00:15:13,100 --> 00:15:15,360 We're gonna change so you can help dad finish the yard. 184 00:15:19,800 --> 00:15:20,800 Are you okay? 185 00:15:23,500 --> 00:15:24,500 I'm really sorry. 186 00:15:31,280 --> 00:15:33,000 It's just a stupid mic. 187 00:15:39,280 --> 00:15:45,940 Mom, Dad, since I can't watch TV all weekend, can we get a cat? 188 00:15:46,380 --> 00:15:47,900 A cat? What? 189 00:15:48,100 --> 00:15:50,560 No, Cody, we have been over this. 190 00:15:50,960 --> 00:15:55,520 But Ms. Brower has a cat that had six kitties, and she says they're all free. 191 00:15:56,060 --> 00:15:58,200 I could pick whichever one I want. 192 00:15:58,880 --> 00:16:02,000 Well, Mrs. Brower's cats probably prefer houses with electricity. 193 00:16:02,700 --> 00:16:05,480 Confederate soldiers had a black cat at Fort McAllister. 194 00:16:05,820 --> 00:16:07,040 They didn't have electricity. 195 00:16:08,300 --> 00:16:12,020 Well, the Yanks took that fort down in 15 minutes. 196 00:16:12,940 --> 00:16:14,520 Cats are evil, son. 197 00:16:20,380 --> 00:16:23,060 I'm so glad you guys came out with us tonight. 198 00:16:23,460 --> 00:16:25,400 Oh, me too. This was a much-needed break. 199 00:16:28,470 --> 00:16:33,290 So, Melissa tells me that you make... ridgery didgers? 200 00:16:35,130 --> 00:16:36,790 What? That was this mic, right? 201 00:16:37,350 --> 00:16:41,990 While I'm finishing up my doctorate, on the side, I make didgeridges. 202 00:16:42,470 --> 00:16:44,670 What the hell is a didgeridoo? Dad! 203 00:16:45,470 --> 00:16:48,350 Sorry, Cody. There's another dollar in the curse jar. 204 00:16:48,630 --> 00:16:51,690 It's a wind instrument made with hollowed-out wood. 205 00:16:52,750 --> 00:16:57,030 It makes a sound like, um... Mmm... 206 00:17:01,290 --> 00:17:02,450 I know what you're talking about. 207 00:17:02,710 --> 00:17:04,550 Has Melissa not shown you the pictures? 208 00:17:05,010 --> 00:17:10,849 Sometimes when he's working late and I'm feeling all alone and missing my boo, I 209 00:17:10,849 --> 00:17:14,010 put one in the bed and it makes me feel like he's close. 210 00:17:14,430 --> 00:17:16,210 Aw, that is so sweet. 211 00:17:16,730 --> 00:17:17,730 And weird. 212 00:17:18,349 --> 00:17:21,290 Honey, it's not weird. I sleep with Wood all the time. 213 00:17:23,190 --> 00:17:27,310 Miss Sherry, why are you a snowflake libtard? 214 00:17:32,010 --> 00:17:34,730 Well, I think the correct term is liberal. 215 00:17:35,470 --> 00:17:36,970 And yes, we are. 216 00:17:37,570 --> 00:17:39,810 You see, this is what I deal with. 217 00:17:40,130 --> 00:17:42,950 Somebody needs to seriously watch what they say around our son. 218 00:17:43,170 --> 00:17:47,330 Mom, since our power's out, how do I charge this? 219 00:17:52,790 --> 00:17:54,250 Would this all be on one check? 220 00:17:54,550 --> 00:17:55,550 Yes. 221 00:17:58,330 --> 00:17:59,430 We can split it. 222 00:17:59,750 --> 00:18:00,750 I've got it. 223 00:18:00,850 --> 00:18:01,850 Go ahead. 224 00:18:01,880 --> 00:18:02,880 We can split. 225 00:18:03,240 --> 00:18:04,240 I've got it. 226 00:18:04,620 --> 00:18:05,620 Okay, I'll be right back. 227 00:18:09,780 --> 00:18:12,960 Cody, when we get home, it's going to be bedtime. 228 00:18:17,620 --> 00:18:18,539 Excuse me. 229 00:18:18,540 --> 00:18:19,640 I need to use the restroom. 230 00:18:48,990 --> 00:18:49,990 Y'all ready to go? 231 00:19:43,950 --> 00:19:45,170 Where are the stars? 232 00:19:46,470 --> 00:19:47,470 It's raining. 233 00:19:47,610 --> 00:19:48,970 The clouds are covering them. 234 00:19:49,530 --> 00:19:52,830 Do you think there are Confederate constellations up there? 235 00:19:53,170 --> 00:19:57,590 Huh. If there were, they'd figure out a way to take them down by now. Let's get 236 00:19:57,590 --> 00:19:58,590 you to bed. 237 00:20:30,480 --> 00:20:32,120 We go to the pond tomorrow. 238 00:20:33,440 --> 00:20:38,320 Tell you what, when I get off work, we'll go. 239 00:20:40,680 --> 00:20:43,160 I want to grow up to be just like you. 240 00:20:48,100 --> 00:20:49,600 I love you so much. 241 00:20:51,660 --> 00:20:52,660 Get some sleep. 242 00:20:54,180 --> 00:20:57,860 Dad, can we please get a cab? No. 243 00:21:04,840 --> 00:21:11,800 So young I thought my time to 244 00:21:11,800 --> 00:21:16,840 build in Christ at last 245 00:21:16,840 --> 00:21:22,100 of heart and soul 246 00:21:22,100 --> 00:21:28,940 and so proud and full I 247 00:21:28,940 --> 00:21:30,580 know sometimes we're all more comfortable. 248 00:21:31,020 --> 00:21:32,020 We are. 249 00:21:33,710 --> 00:21:34,710 I'll show you. 250 00:22:27,310 --> 00:22:28,670 There's a ton of food left. 251 00:22:29,510 --> 00:22:30,970 Do either of you want a plate? 252 00:23:22,160 --> 00:23:23,160 Do you have anything for a headache? 253 00:23:31,960 --> 00:23:33,200 This is my fault. 254 00:23:36,260 --> 00:23:37,960 I'm drowning without him. 255 00:23:39,060 --> 00:23:41,160 Honey, it's not your fault. 256 00:24:32,470 --> 00:24:33,510 Mr. and Mrs. Johnson? 257 00:24:33,770 --> 00:24:36,090 Yes. Hello, my name is Fatima. 258 00:24:37,070 --> 00:24:38,930 We spoke on the phone. Nice to meet you. 259 00:24:39,430 --> 00:24:40,430 This way. 260 00:24:40,610 --> 00:24:41,610 Mr. Johnson. 261 00:24:41,630 --> 00:24:42,630 Where are you from? 262 00:25:00,010 --> 00:25:02,370 Thank you for taking the time to come and see me today. 263 00:25:02,770 --> 00:25:07,230 I know how hard this must be for you and I'm really sorry 264 00:25:07,230 --> 00:25:13,850 This has to be so difficult for the both of you Um, 265 00:25:13,890 --> 00:25:18,770 I wish I had some good news, but your claim is under investigation And I'm 266 00:25:18,770 --> 00:25:22,210 glad you're here in person so we can go over the details and handle this matter 267 00:25:22,210 --> 00:25:25,250 as quickly as possible Why is our claim under investigation? 268 00:25:25,990 --> 00:25:29,190 Unfortunately, mrs. Johnson, it's standard procedure for a claimant who's 269 00:25:29,190 --> 00:25:34,210 as far behind on their mortgages as you are when the incident happened. 270 00:25:34,470 --> 00:25:35,470 Fuck you. 271 00:25:35,910 --> 00:25:36,910 Sir? Brad. 272 00:25:37,310 --> 00:25:40,450 It wasn't an incident. It was a fucking accident. 273 00:25:40,890 --> 00:25:45,430 Brad, please. I'm so sorry. I did not mean to imply... Imply what? 274 00:25:47,130 --> 00:25:49,370 That I burned my son alive for insurance money? 275 00:25:50,970 --> 00:25:56,170 An incident is blowing a terrorist's head off with a single shot from over a 276 00:25:56,170 --> 00:25:57,170 thousand yards away. 277 00:25:57,840 --> 00:26:00,820 An accident was killing the asshole that stood behind him. 278 00:26:01,600 --> 00:26:04,880 It's a theme of Fukia Fatima. Brad! 279 00:26:05,320 --> 00:26:06,320 Look at me! 280 00:26:32,280 --> 00:26:34,680 Why can't I wake up from this nightmare? 281 00:26:52,220 --> 00:26:53,220 Hello? 282 00:26:58,040 --> 00:26:59,040 Brad? 283 00:26:59,340 --> 00:27:00,340 Is that you? 284 00:27:01,050 --> 00:27:02,050 Hello? 285 00:27:02,410 --> 00:27:03,410 Yeah. 286 00:27:04,110 --> 00:27:05,130 Where are you? 287 00:27:06,850 --> 00:27:07,850 Are you okay? 288 00:27:10,990 --> 00:27:12,850 I haven't heard from you in weeks. 289 00:27:13,990 --> 00:27:15,030 I'm okay, Melissa. 290 00:27:15,990 --> 00:27:18,590 Brad, we have to talk. 291 00:27:19,610 --> 00:27:21,630 I'm still staying at my sister's. 292 00:27:22,090 --> 00:27:23,270 Could you come here? 293 00:27:24,550 --> 00:27:25,550 Tomorrow? 294 00:27:27,410 --> 00:27:28,410 Please? 295 00:27:29,210 --> 00:27:30,210 Okay. 296 00:28:13,429 --> 00:28:15,030 Hello. Have you been here before? 297 00:28:15,330 --> 00:28:17,250 I just need a shower and something to eat. 298 00:28:17,630 --> 00:28:18,630 Okay, sweetie. 299 00:28:18,710 --> 00:28:22,090 I just need you to read the rules and then sign in here. 300 00:28:22,890 --> 00:28:26,970 As you can see, there will be a mandatory church service at 8 p.m. 301 00:28:26,970 --> 00:28:27,970 tonight. 302 00:28:28,090 --> 00:28:29,130 Will you be staying tonight? 303 00:28:29,450 --> 00:28:30,450 No. 304 00:28:30,610 --> 00:28:31,810 Are you sure? 305 00:28:32,730 --> 00:28:33,770 The beds are comfy. 306 00:28:36,290 --> 00:28:40,270 All right, Ted Nugent. 307 00:28:41,030 --> 00:28:42,030 What's this? 308 00:28:42,840 --> 00:28:45,880 It's a local group that helps veterans find work. 309 00:28:46,380 --> 00:28:47,380 Pays decent. 310 00:28:49,000 --> 00:28:50,520 Who's Colonel McKinley? 311 00:28:51,600 --> 00:28:55,720 He's the gentleman who founded it in memory of his son. 312 00:28:56,800 --> 00:28:57,800 What happened? 313 00:28:58,760 --> 00:29:01,320 He was killed in Fallujah. 314 00:29:03,000 --> 00:29:05,040 Damn. You know him? 315 00:29:05,700 --> 00:29:08,180 Yeah. Our families go way back. 316 00:29:08,480 --> 00:29:09,560 Our kids grew up together. 317 00:29:11,260 --> 00:29:12,660 Colonel's having a hard time with it. 318 00:29:15,160 --> 00:29:21,540 Well, for you, the 319 00:29:21,540 --> 00:29:25,160 showers are just down the hall on the right after the disco ball. 320 00:29:25,720 --> 00:29:26,720 I'm kidding. 321 00:29:27,120 --> 00:29:28,480 It's just past the cafeteria. 322 00:30:02,700 --> 00:30:03,699 Are you a vet? 323 00:30:03,700 --> 00:30:06,240 I saw your tattoo in the shower. 324 00:30:07,160 --> 00:30:10,880 You know, I was a Navy SEAL in Iraq. 325 00:30:13,740 --> 00:30:20,460 We worked real close with the CIA targeting HVTs in 326 00:30:20,460 --> 00:30:21,540 restricted areas. 327 00:30:21,860 --> 00:30:27,200 Oh, wow. That was some deep underground stuff, like Black Ops style. 328 00:30:31,820 --> 00:30:35,080 An HVT is a high-value target? 329 00:30:35,380 --> 00:30:36,600 I know what they are. 330 00:30:37,440 --> 00:30:38,720 Which team were you with? 331 00:30:39,700 --> 00:30:44,180 The, um... The 77th Spec Ops. 332 00:30:44,740 --> 00:30:47,440 The, um... Sniper Battalion. 333 00:30:49,060 --> 00:30:50,240 Your friend's a liar. 334 00:30:50,500 --> 00:30:51,760 Does he have a mental disorder? 335 00:30:53,940 --> 00:30:55,280 I am not lying. 336 00:30:55,840 --> 00:30:56,840 Yes, you are. 337 00:30:57,300 --> 00:30:59,280 If you're not batshit crazy... 338 00:30:59,560 --> 00:31:02,400 then you're a queer that likes to stare at naked guys in the shower. 339 00:31:03,580 --> 00:31:05,360 I am not a queer. 340 00:31:06,680 --> 00:31:10,300 I was part of a secret team that nobody knows about. 341 00:31:13,140 --> 00:31:15,100 There's only three of me in the entire world. 342 00:31:15,380 --> 00:31:17,900 Oh, that's cute. Like Charlie's Angels. 343 00:31:19,260 --> 00:31:20,400 I am not a liar. 344 00:31:20,700 --> 00:31:22,240 Hey, hey, hey. What's going on here? 345 00:31:23,100 --> 00:31:27,500 Billy, have you taken your meds? Ah, he is crazy. I thought he wanted to suck my 346 00:31:27,500 --> 00:31:28,500 dick. Whoa. 347 00:31:30,560 --> 00:31:32,680 Listen, this here is a Christian organization. 348 00:31:33,000 --> 00:31:34,960 We don't talk like that. I'm gonna have to ask you to leave. 349 00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:36,780 What? And stealing Valor's okay? 350 00:31:37,100 --> 00:31:41,060 Look, I don't know you or your story, but I do know you reek of alcohol. 351 00:31:41,320 --> 00:31:43,100 And if I had to guess, you're probably high. 352 00:31:43,640 --> 00:31:45,300 You're already violating our rules. 353 00:31:45,580 --> 00:31:49,580 That man, he has problems that I'd be willing to bet neither you nor I can 354 00:31:49,580 --> 00:31:50,580 pretend to understand. 355 00:31:51,660 --> 00:31:53,420 But he's been sober for six months. 356 00:31:54,200 --> 00:31:57,600 If you knew anything about the flavor of his mental illness... 357 00:31:57,850 --> 00:31:59,730 then you know what an accomplishment that is. 358 00:32:00,190 --> 00:32:03,850 So if he wants to steal a little valor when he forgets to take his meds because 359 00:32:03,850 --> 00:32:06,770 it makes him feel like someone with a shred of dignity, 360 00:32:07,470 --> 00:32:10,070 well, this retired gunnery sergeant's okay with that. 361 00:32:15,470 --> 00:32:17,090 It's just been one of those days, you know? 362 00:32:18,350 --> 00:32:21,090 Look, I've changed my mind. You don't have to go. 363 00:33:16,010 --> 00:33:17,010 I've missed you. 364 00:33:21,590 --> 00:33:22,590 What's this? 365 00:33:23,330 --> 00:33:24,330 Have a seat. 366 00:33:36,030 --> 00:33:40,610 I know that with all that has happened here, it deserves time to heal. 367 00:33:41,550 --> 00:33:43,930 And I can't even begin to imagine the pain. 368 00:33:45,290 --> 00:33:47,870 Everyone in this room loves you, Brad. You know that. 369 00:33:48,550 --> 00:33:51,730 That's why we're all here today, to tell you how we feel. 370 00:33:53,690 --> 00:33:54,690 Cynthia? 371 00:33:57,610 --> 00:34:02,030 Brad, I have loved you like a brother ever since Melissa and you started 372 00:34:02,030 --> 00:34:06,150 dating. You're an incredibly loving father and a good husband to my sister. 373 00:34:06,750 --> 00:34:09,630 But since that night, you have changed. 374 00:34:10,610 --> 00:34:11,790 We've all changed. 375 00:34:12,350 --> 00:34:14,290 But we can't go on like this. 376 00:34:14,679 --> 00:34:16,020 Melissa needs you now. 377 00:34:16,639 --> 00:34:18,679 Please, let us help you. 378 00:34:20,600 --> 00:34:21,600 Melissa. 379 00:34:24,719 --> 00:34:27,639 Brad, losing you like this is killing me. 380 00:34:29,679 --> 00:34:31,400 You got fired from your job. 381 00:34:32,420 --> 00:34:36,219 You're gone for weeks at a time with an occasional drunken phone call. 382 00:34:38,980 --> 00:34:40,280 I know you're hurting. 383 00:34:40,520 --> 00:34:41,520 We all are. 384 00:34:45,550 --> 00:34:47,190 We have to find a way to move past it. 385 00:34:50,050 --> 00:34:53,850 I don't know why you left me, but I love you. 386 00:34:57,210 --> 00:34:58,310 And I need you. 387 00:35:00,150 --> 00:35:01,650 Please don't give up on us. 388 00:35:03,290 --> 00:35:04,690 You're my best friend, remember? 389 00:35:06,550 --> 00:35:08,250 We've found a way for you to get help. 390 00:35:08,750 --> 00:35:12,090 People that will help with the alcohol, the drugs, and the loss. 391 00:35:12,450 --> 00:35:13,930 You won't have to do this alone. 392 00:35:15,910 --> 00:35:22,850 But if you don't let us help you if you don't agree to this help Our hands will 393 00:35:22,850 --> 00:35:29,670 be tied You will no longer be welcome in these folks lives Bradley I need you to 394 00:35:29,670 --> 00:35:35,850 look at me If you don't take this opportunity Melissa is prepared to ask 395 00:35:35,850 --> 00:35:36,850 for a divorce 396 00:35:46,760 --> 00:35:49,060 I wonder what our son would think about this. 397 00:35:50,060 --> 00:35:51,460 No, no. 398 00:35:52,040 --> 00:35:55,340 Do not bring Cody into this. This is about us. 399 00:35:57,380 --> 00:36:01,360 I lived through the nightmares, the deployments, and the never-ending 400 00:36:01,360 --> 00:36:02,360 training trips. 401 00:36:04,740 --> 00:36:08,080 I feel like all I've done is wait on you, Brad, and I'm tired of it. 402 00:36:09,640 --> 00:36:13,260 You get this help, or I want a divorce. 403 00:36:42,130 --> 00:36:46,750 Melissa, with Opie and Luke gone, the team needs guys with my experience. 404 00:36:47,890 --> 00:36:48,970 They need me. 405 00:36:56,830 --> 00:36:58,190 We're having a baby, Brad. 406 00:36:59,740 --> 00:37:01,240 What? We're having a baby. 407 00:37:01,440 --> 00:37:02,440 Really? Yes. 408 00:37:03,420 --> 00:37:04,900 It only took 10 years. 409 00:37:05,120 --> 00:37:06,120 Oh, my God. 410 00:37:06,380 --> 00:37:07,380 Are you sure? 411 00:37:07,480 --> 00:37:08,480 Yeah. 412 00:37:08,980 --> 00:37:11,960 I've been a little sick, and I had a hunch, so I went to the doctor. 413 00:37:13,260 --> 00:37:16,860 Bradley, please, please reconsider getting out. Please. 414 00:37:17,760 --> 00:37:22,640 Baby, I am so happy for us right now. I promise the next four years is it. And 415 00:37:22,640 --> 00:37:25,800 we'll get out. We'll start that little garden shop that we always talked about. 416 00:37:25,880 --> 00:37:28,340 It'll just be our family. Oh, my God. 417 00:39:31,430 --> 00:39:32,430 Huh? 418 00:39:33,890 --> 00:39:34,890 Hey man, listen. 419 00:39:36,110 --> 00:39:39,810 So my disability comes in a week, maybe sooner. 420 00:39:41,170 --> 00:39:42,230 I got any credit? 421 00:40:51,340 --> 00:40:52,340 Hey, man. 422 00:40:52,420 --> 00:40:53,420 Are you stupid? 423 00:40:54,160 --> 00:40:55,260 This ain't no charity. 424 00:40:59,360 --> 00:41:00,360 Where's the ride? 425 00:41:00,540 --> 00:41:02,360 I sold it. You got the usual? 426 00:41:03,160 --> 00:41:04,220 Add some new shit. 427 00:41:11,400 --> 00:41:12,400 Hey, man. 428 00:41:12,580 --> 00:41:13,940 There's two pink ones in there. 429 00:41:14,500 --> 00:41:15,500 On the house. 430 00:41:15,820 --> 00:41:17,720 Do not take them at the same time. 431 00:43:00,490 --> 00:43:03,390 So, which story does the birthday boy want to read tonight? 432 00:43:04,930 --> 00:43:07,990 Let's read the Makeup a Star game. 433 00:43:08,310 --> 00:43:09,310 Oh, okay. 434 00:43:09,570 --> 00:43:10,570 Who's going to start? 435 00:43:11,510 --> 00:43:12,510 You start. 436 00:43:12,710 --> 00:43:14,730 All right, let me think here. 437 00:43:16,150 --> 00:43:20,890 Once upon a time, there was a king, a queen, and a prince. 438 00:43:22,490 --> 00:43:23,490 You go. 439 00:43:23,710 --> 00:43:28,730 All right, let's see. They all lived in a castle, but outside the castle lived a 440 00:43:28,730 --> 00:43:29,730 scary monster. 441 00:43:30,840 --> 00:43:35,900 Hmm. And the monster's name was Boogers. 442 00:43:37,200 --> 00:43:40,260 Boogers smelled like the bathroom after Daddy used it. 443 00:43:41,260 --> 00:43:47,600 And Boogers liked to leave dishes in the sink and pee on toilet seats. Oh, I see 444 00:43:47,600 --> 00:43:48,600 what's happening here. 445 00:43:48,720 --> 00:43:54,060 Well, as it turns out, the queen was really an evil witch. 446 00:43:54,300 --> 00:44:00,480 And she made everybody clean the castle all the time. All the time. All right. 447 00:44:00,620 --> 00:44:04,340 Well, the queen was so mean that she even made the king sleep on the couch. 448 00:44:05,060 --> 00:44:07,180 She wouldn't. She would. 449 00:44:08,680 --> 00:44:12,040 Well, the queen will walk around the castle all the time. 450 00:44:13,260 --> 00:44:14,260 Like. 451 00:44:15,200 --> 00:44:18,140 Oh, my God. Did you hear about so-and-so? I can't believe that she 452 00:44:18,140 --> 00:44:19,180 would say that about her. 453 00:45:57,230 --> 00:45:59,810 You can only see. 454 00:46:00,510 --> 00:46:02,490 She's not my sweetheart. 455 00:46:02,970 --> 00:46:04,210 Must be her. 456 00:46:53,790 --> 00:46:55,430 Damn it, where the fuck are you hit? 457 00:46:57,810 --> 00:46:58,930 I'm okay with this. 458 00:46:59,830 --> 00:47:01,790 God damn it, I need a fucking medic now! 459 00:47:03,270 --> 00:47:04,710 I'm okay with this. 460 00:47:08,650 --> 00:47:12,990 Or how about maybe when you're having these nightmares, you take off all your 461 00:47:12,990 --> 00:47:13,990 clothes? 462 00:47:14,450 --> 00:47:19,870 Why? Because you can't fight no more naked, and maybe it'll change the dream 463 00:47:19,870 --> 00:47:20,870 for you. 464 00:47:23,080 --> 00:47:30,040 what do you think denver you think she's right about getting 465 00:47:30,040 --> 00:47:30,540 naked 466 00:47:30,540 --> 00:47:48,160 hey 467 00:47:48,160 --> 00:47:49,160 guys 468 00:47:50,320 --> 00:47:54,280 What's so funny? Oh, you gotta check this out, man. This naked homeless guy 469 00:47:54,280 --> 00:47:55,880 getting chased by a cop. Yeah? 470 00:48:23,720 --> 00:48:24,379 Yes, hi. 471 00:48:24,380 --> 00:48:27,600 I was wondering if I could check to see if somebody's being held in your 472 00:48:27,600 --> 00:48:28,600 custody. 473 00:48:29,480 --> 00:48:30,480 Bradley Johnson? 474 00:48:32,400 --> 00:48:33,400 Okay. 475 00:48:33,860 --> 00:48:34,860 Thanks. 476 00:48:35,060 --> 00:48:36,440 Which day was he released? 477 00:48:38,600 --> 00:48:41,560 That was five days ago. Do you have an address for him? 478 00:48:43,000 --> 00:48:44,000 Yeah, no. 479 00:48:44,160 --> 00:48:45,160 It's okay. 480 00:48:46,300 --> 00:48:47,300 Understood. 481 00:48:48,260 --> 00:48:49,260 Thanks for your help. 482 00:49:05,840 --> 00:49:06,960 Do you remember Dad? 483 00:49:09,000 --> 00:49:13,880 Not much. I mean, he was fat and yelled a lot. 484 00:49:15,380 --> 00:49:16,500 Why did he leave? 485 00:49:17,260 --> 00:49:19,100 Mom says it's because he wasn't a Christian. 486 00:49:19,640 --> 00:49:20,680 Do you miss him? 487 00:49:22,060 --> 00:49:23,060 Not much. 488 00:49:24,360 --> 00:49:25,360 He was mean. 489 00:49:26,260 --> 00:49:27,540 Besides, I got you, stupid. 490 00:49:29,620 --> 00:49:31,580 I smile because you're my brother. 491 00:49:31,940 --> 00:49:32,940 I laugh. 492 00:49:33,160 --> 00:49:35,680 because there's nothing you can do about it. 493 00:50:39,720 --> 00:50:40,720 Can I help you? 494 00:50:40,840 --> 00:50:42,740 I'm looking for Mrs. Melissa Johnson. 495 00:50:43,360 --> 00:50:44,680 Rivera. I'm sorry? 496 00:50:45,060 --> 00:50:46,640 It's Melissa Rivera now. 497 00:50:46,900 --> 00:50:47,900 Oh, I see. 498 00:50:48,100 --> 00:50:49,100 My apologies. 499 00:50:49,420 --> 00:50:50,460 How can I help you? 500 00:50:50,840 --> 00:50:52,140 My name is Jim Johnson. 501 00:50:52,820 --> 00:50:54,540 Bradley is my brother. 502 00:50:55,680 --> 00:50:57,000 Bradley didn't have a brother. 503 00:50:58,140 --> 00:51:03,080 Yeah, well, it's a long story, ma'am, but Bradley really is my brother, I 504 00:51:03,080 --> 00:51:05,540 promise. Let's see. He joined the Navy. 505 00:51:06,160 --> 00:51:09,280 I don't know. He had a birthmark under his armpit shaped kind of like a 506 00:51:09,280 --> 00:51:11,540 Florida. Our mom's name was Edith. 507 00:51:12,020 --> 00:51:14,180 Why wouldn't Bradley have told me that he had a brother? 508 00:51:14,920 --> 00:51:18,720 I apologize for showing up unannounced, and I can come back later if you're 509 00:51:18,720 --> 00:51:21,480 busy. But I really believe my brother's in trouble. 510 00:51:24,200 --> 00:51:26,400 We can take a break. Would you like to come in? 511 00:51:26,820 --> 00:51:27,940 Please. Okay. 512 00:51:38,250 --> 00:51:39,250 It's this way. 513 00:52:13,600 --> 00:52:17,620 With Thunderstorm, there's another full-fledged group. It's that time of 514 00:52:17,620 --> 00:52:18,620 year. 515 00:52:53,470 --> 00:52:54,470 Morning. Morning. 516 00:52:55,350 --> 00:52:56,750 I'm looking for my brother. 517 00:52:57,010 --> 00:52:59,610 I was wondering if there was somebody here I could talk to. 518 00:53:00,250 --> 00:53:01,249 Sure, sweetie. 519 00:53:01,250 --> 00:53:02,730 I just need you to sign there. 520 00:53:03,730 --> 00:53:06,750 Chuck, we have a visitor here looking for his brother. 521 00:53:12,590 --> 00:53:13,870 How you doing? 522 00:53:14,770 --> 00:53:15,770 Come on back. 523 00:53:16,170 --> 00:53:19,350 Have a seat. 524 00:53:22,320 --> 00:53:23,560 Who is it you're looking for again? 525 00:53:24,020 --> 00:53:28,200 He's, uh, my brother, Bradley Johnson. 526 00:53:28,960 --> 00:53:30,420 Does he know you're looking for him? 527 00:53:31,100 --> 00:53:32,100 Most likely not. 528 00:53:32,460 --> 00:53:33,460 Well, here's the deal, then. 529 00:53:34,280 --> 00:53:38,440 If he's here, all I can do is take your information and give it to him. From 530 00:53:38,440 --> 00:53:39,580 there, it's up to him. 531 00:53:40,440 --> 00:53:42,180 Understood. Let's see here. 532 00:53:45,200 --> 00:53:46,200 No? 533 00:53:46,320 --> 00:53:48,020 Is there a different name he might be using? 534 00:53:48,580 --> 00:53:49,580 I don't know. 535 00:53:50,340 --> 00:53:51,340 How about a picture? 536 00:53:56,720 --> 00:54:00,160 Oh, yeah. I saw that video last week. That guy's your brother? 537 00:54:00,440 --> 00:54:01,440 Yeah. 538 00:54:01,580 --> 00:54:03,640 I was a little surprised I recognized him. 539 00:54:04,760 --> 00:54:06,880 The guy was here a long time ago. 540 00:54:07,460 --> 00:54:10,160 I guess you guys haven't done a very good job of keeping in touch. 541 00:54:10,740 --> 00:54:11,860 That's one way of putting it. 542 00:54:14,380 --> 00:54:16,520 You might have some luck down on Washington Street. 543 00:54:58,250 --> 00:54:59,970 Please, I just want to talk. No. 544 00:55:02,790 --> 00:55:04,070 Please, I've been looking for you. 545 00:55:08,510 --> 00:55:10,570 You want to talk to me now? 546 00:55:11,390 --> 00:55:12,390 What's it been, Jim? 547 00:55:13,310 --> 00:55:14,310 30 years? 548 00:55:15,130 --> 00:55:17,290 30 fucking years and you want to talk to me now? 549 00:55:17,530 --> 00:55:19,490 Yeah, I saw the video. I want to help. 550 00:55:20,250 --> 00:55:21,250 You want to help? 551 00:55:22,310 --> 00:55:24,390 I don't need your help. I never have. 552 00:55:25,870 --> 00:55:27,390 Where was this help back then? 553 00:55:27,950 --> 00:55:30,450 You know, when you chose being a faggot over being a brother. 554 00:55:30,650 --> 00:55:32,650 Mom kicked me out. You knew that. 555 00:55:33,030 --> 00:55:36,930 She thought I was going to infect you. I had no choice. Oh, come on. 556 00:55:37,150 --> 00:55:38,150 You had a choice. 557 00:55:38,730 --> 00:55:39,830 But you chose dick. 558 00:55:41,250 --> 00:55:45,970 You know, after you left for your little fairyland life, Mom got cancer. 559 00:55:46,870 --> 00:55:48,570 She was sick for three years. 560 00:55:49,170 --> 00:55:52,650 Do you have any idea how hard it is to take care of somebody with cancer? 561 00:55:52,910 --> 00:55:53,950 I tried, Brad. 562 00:55:55,050 --> 00:55:56,050 Look. 563 00:55:56,720 --> 00:56:00,480 Even if I had been able to talk to you, do you think that you would have treated 564 00:56:00,480 --> 00:56:02,080 me any differently than the way you are now? 565 00:56:04,660 --> 00:56:07,040 Being gay is not a choice, Brad. 566 00:56:07,960 --> 00:56:11,360 I mean, who would choose that, especially back then? 567 00:56:12,040 --> 00:56:17,520 I got kicked out of my house, fired from two jobs, and got my ass beaten so badly 568 00:56:17,520 --> 00:56:20,600 I was in the hospital for a week and could no longer taste food. 569 00:56:20,980 --> 00:56:23,240 That was my fairyland life, Brad. 570 00:56:25,100 --> 00:56:26,880 You feel better getting that off your chest. 571 00:56:57,680 --> 00:56:58,680 You okay? 572 00:56:58,800 --> 00:56:59,800 Can you sit up? 573 00:57:01,160 --> 00:57:03,580 Bastards took my shit. Where are you headed? 574 00:57:03,980 --> 00:57:05,300 I just want to cool off! 575 00:57:06,460 --> 00:57:08,060 It's a fucking laundromat. 576 00:57:08,680 --> 00:57:11,160 The cops will kick you out, man. They drive by it all the time. 577 00:57:12,180 --> 00:57:13,180 We're nice. 578 00:57:13,580 --> 00:57:14,580 Ted. 579 00:57:16,600 --> 00:57:17,600 Good luck. 580 00:57:19,460 --> 00:57:20,460 Hey. 581 00:57:21,680 --> 00:57:22,700 They took my shit. 582 00:57:25,560 --> 00:57:26,580 You carrying a weapon? 583 00:57:27,980 --> 00:57:28,980 I was. 584 00:57:32,640 --> 00:57:33,960 You're going to have to let me search you. 585 00:57:35,400 --> 00:57:36,400 Good thinking, Ted. 586 00:57:36,520 --> 00:57:38,040 It's not like I could be robbed of much else. 587 00:57:38,780 --> 00:57:40,080 Put your hands behind your head. 588 00:57:42,820 --> 00:57:44,400 Put your hands behind your head. 589 00:57:48,460 --> 00:57:51,000 Hey, watch that one. Watch that one. Hey, stop! What was that? 590 00:57:52,160 --> 00:57:53,160 What was that? 591 00:57:56,490 --> 00:57:57,490 I'd like to keep a little on you. 592 00:58:00,270 --> 00:58:01,490 Oh, don't worry, I'm not an addict. 593 00:58:02,630 --> 00:58:06,310 It's like a wise man once said, everything in moderation, including 594 00:58:06,310 --> 00:58:07,310 moderation. 595 00:58:10,270 --> 00:58:11,270 What's it like? 596 00:58:12,910 --> 00:58:13,910 Like nothing else. 597 00:58:18,210 --> 00:58:19,270 Come on, follow me. 598 00:58:21,370 --> 00:58:22,370 Can't thank you enough. 599 00:58:50,960 --> 00:58:51,960 Nice digs, Ted. 600 00:58:52,420 --> 00:58:53,560 It's just for the night. 601 00:58:53,780 --> 00:58:54,780 I know. 602 00:59:02,080 --> 00:59:07,060 Hey, so this is off-limits, all right? If it rains, I'll let you sleep 603 00:59:07,060 --> 00:59:09,520 underneath this tarp, but stay away from my tent. 604 00:59:11,080 --> 00:59:12,080 Fair enough. 605 00:59:13,000 --> 00:59:16,400 I guess you don't get really bothered out here very much, do you? I like the 606 00:59:16,400 --> 00:59:17,400 quiet. 607 00:59:17,760 --> 00:59:18,760 Hey, um... 608 00:59:24,400 --> 00:59:25,400 All right. 609 00:59:29,280 --> 00:59:33,880 I've got to admit, I thought you'd be more of a stick in the mud. 610 00:59:34,560 --> 00:59:37,340 I'm gonna put this right here like a tourniquet. 611 00:59:41,360 --> 00:59:43,140 Mind if I ask you a personal question, Ted? 612 00:59:46,440 --> 00:59:47,440 You got any kids? 613 00:59:51,440 --> 00:59:52,440 I have a son. 614 00:59:53,740 --> 00:59:54,740 I have a niece. 615 00:59:56,820 --> 00:59:59,660 Two little nephews. 616 01:00:01,140 --> 01:00:02,140 How are they doing? 617 01:00:02,520 --> 01:00:03,700 I couldn't tell you. 618 01:00:05,460 --> 01:00:06,460 It's been a minute. 619 01:00:07,720 --> 01:00:09,020 Just say I did some time. 620 01:00:10,440 --> 01:00:11,760 How much time are we talking? 621 01:00:12,220 --> 01:00:13,440 A little over a year. 622 01:00:15,220 --> 01:00:17,280 A year? That doesn't sound bad. What happened? 623 01:00:20,360 --> 01:00:22,360 It's a little difficult for most people to understand. 624 01:00:23,850 --> 01:00:27,150 Look, man, I don't think there's anything out there that can surprise me. 625 01:00:28,150 --> 01:00:30,490 I was a funeral director for 16 years. 626 01:00:31,050 --> 01:00:33,050 16 years in the same place. 627 01:00:36,090 --> 01:00:39,470 Had a co-worker suspect me of drinking on the job. 628 01:00:40,430 --> 01:00:42,190 So he reported me to management. 629 01:00:44,230 --> 01:00:45,970 Didn't even have the balls to ask me. 630 01:00:47,730 --> 01:00:52,010 That same funeral home was a favorite for parents whose kids had died in, 631 01:00:52,050 --> 01:00:53,760 uh... in the cancer center. 632 01:00:54,360 --> 01:00:59,020 I guess mainly because we had this parlor with murals, little kids running, 633 01:00:59,080 --> 01:01:01,200 smiling, jumping into the arms of Jesus. 634 01:01:08,080 --> 01:01:09,180 You wanna take that off? 635 01:01:17,720 --> 01:01:21,880 Wait, are you talking about the one up north off the interstate with the big 636 01:01:21,880 --> 01:01:23,250 sign? That's the one. 637 01:01:24,490 --> 01:01:27,670 Anyway, they installed hidden security cameras. 638 01:01:29,110 --> 01:01:34,230 And many times I've been in that place, you'd suspect that I would have noticed 639 01:01:34,230 --> 01:01:35,230 it. 640 01:01:36,110 --> 01:01:37,410 I should have noticed it. 641 01:01:40,350 --> 01:01:41,350 How are you feeling? 642 01:01:41,730 --> 01:01:46,610 I feel kind of groggy. It's hard to move. 643 01:01:47,630 --> 01:01:48,630 Is that normal? 644 01:01:49,030 --> 01:01:50,030 Yes, it is. 645 01:01:53,450 --> 01:01:55,150 Well, anyway, they caught me drinking on the job. 646 01:01:56,630 --> 01:01:58,070 I was preparing Russell. 647 01:01:59,610 --> 01:02:02,830 Beautiful, angel-haired little boy. 648 01:02:04,570 --> 01:02:05,990 It was a hard job. 649 01:02:07,390 --> 01:02:08,890 Can you blame a man for drinking? 650 01:02:10,910 --> 01:02:12,710 Cameras caught me doing something else. 651 01:02:16,450 --> 01:02:21,630 I mean, we were taking delivery of naked boys on a weekly basis. 652 01:02:24,430 --> 01:02:29,230 Every time I think about those sweet little kids. 653 01:02:31,310 --> 01:02:33,490 You're a pedophile? 654 01:02:36,910 --> 01:02:40,830 I am not a pedophile! 655 01:02:43,690 --> 01:02:47,290 It's called something different, which is why I'm not still in prison. 656 01:02:47,570 --> 01:02:48,870 It is different. 657 01:02:49,480 --> 01:02:53,940 especially under state law, but you can imagine what people do to people like me 658 01:02:53,940 --> 01:02:55,580 when they think they're a pedophile in prison. 659 01:02:56,920 --> 01:02:58,280 I'll tell you what they did. 660 01:02:59,620 --> 01:03:04,460 They hovered over the stall like wolves waiting for me to finish. 661 01:03:05,400 --> 01:03:12,100 And every time those faggots raped me, another piece of me 662 01:03:12,100 --> 01:03:13,100 died. 663 01:03:14,800 --> 01:03:16,480 Until there was nothing left. 664 01:03:28,339 --> 01:03:29,339 So who are you? 665 01:04:52,920 --> 01:04:53,920 Always that loud. 666 01:05:02,840 --> 01:05:04,860 Look, try to think about it from his perspective. 667 01:05:05,140 --> 01:05:06,980 What? Like a drunk homophobe? 668 01:05:07,340 --> 01:05:09,600 I'm willing to bet he doesn't resent you because you're gay. 669 01:05:10,640 --> 01:05:11,840 I bet it's because you left. 670 01:05:13,040 --> 01:05:14,120 That's not what he'd say. 671 01:05:15,140 --> 01:05:16,140 He was 15. 672 01:05:16,640 --> 01:05:18,220 He doesn't want anybody's help. 673 01:05:19,580 --> 01:05:20,580 Especially not mine. 674 01:05:21,770 --> 01:05:23,430 Maybe, but I know you, Jim. 675 01:05:23,990 --> 01:05:26,090 You've held on to this regret for a long time. 676 01:05:27,210 --> 01:05:31,730 And I know how unhappy you were at our wedding when you had no family there. 677 01:05:35,330 --> 01:05:36,330 What are you doing? 678 01:05:37,270 --> 01:05:39,550 I'm letting work know I'm taking some personal days. 679 01:05:44,750 --> 01:05:45,750 Hey, Ray. 680 01:05:47,110 --> 01:05:49,290 Can I have that whiskey Bobby gave you for your birthday? 681 01:05:50,020 --> 01:05:52,520 That's a little unorthodox for an olive branch, don't you think? 682 01:05:53,460 --> 01:05:54,460 Maybe. 683 01:05:54,840 --> 01:05:56,280 It's in the pantry above the fridge. 684 01:05:56,940 --> 01:05:57,940 Thank you. 685 01:05:58,180 --> 01:06:00,000 I love you. 686 01:06:19,690 --> 01:06:20,690 Dad, relax. 687 01:06:21,550 --> 01:06:23,410 Cody? Oh my gosh. 688 01:06:25,070 --> 01:06:29,730 Wait, wait. Cody, wait. Cody, what are you doing? 689 01:06:30,230 --> 01:06:32,570 I regret to be just like you. 690 01:06:33,490 --> 01:06:34,490 Cody! 691 01:06:34,970 --> 01:06:36,650 I love you so much. 692 01:06:38,690 --> 01:06:41,110 Where am I? What is this? 693 01:06:41,430 --> 01:06:43,370 Dad, it wasn't your fault. 694 01:07:44,040 --> 01:07:45,040 You disgust- 695 01:09:41,040 --> 01:09:42,000 Because I'm your brother 696 01:09:42,000 --> 01:09:57,000 You're 697 01:09:57,000 --> 01:10:03,020 married eight years poor guy 698 01:10:03,020 --> 01:10:08,760 What about kids 699 01:10:19,500 --> 01:10:20,500 I have a son. 700 01:10:21,520 --> 01:10:22,520 I know. 701 01:10:23,760 --> 01:10:25,900 I met Melissa trying to find you. 702 01:10:27,100 --> 01:10:28,100 How is she? 703 01:10:29,180 --> 01:10:30,180 Worried. 704 01:10:31,200 --> 01:10:32,780 Aside from that she seems okay. 705 01:10:35,520 --> 01:10:39,260 Is she with someone? 706 01:11:06,299 --> 01:11:09,360 I'm not the father he would be proud of. 707 01:11:12,100 --> 01:11:13,960 I'm not even human anymore. 708 01:11:16,700 --> 01:11:21,780 I would have killed myself a long time ago, but I knew I'd never have a chance 709 01:11:21,780 --> 01:11:22,780 to see him again. 710 01:11:26,420 --> 01:11:28,660 I never wanted any of this. 711 01:11:37,710 --> 01:11:38,710 Here you go, buddy. 712 01:11:39,030 --> 01:11:44,130 Thank you, sir. 713 01:12:06,160 --> 01:12:07,160 I lost something. 714 01:12:08,180 --> 01:12:09,240 A lot, actually. 715 01:12:11,240 --> 01:12:12,620 Everything that mattered to me. 716 01:12:14,380 --> 01:12:18,180 I was trained to be one of the most elite combat operators in the world. 717 01:12:19,680 --> 01:12:21,260 There was nothing I couldn't handle. 718 01:12:21,900 --> 01:12:23,960 Or so I thought. 719 01:12:26,820 --> 01:12:28,680 I've taken two oaths in my life. 720 01:12:29,540 --> 01:12:34,280 I took one to stand by my country, and another to stand by my wife. 721 01:12:36,040 --> 01:12:37,040 My blood. 722 01:12:37,540 --> 01:12:39,000 My family. 723 01:12:40,660 --> 01:12:42,300 I broke the most important one. 724 01:12:44,280 --> 01:12:45,960 That is why I'm here. 725 01:12:47,300 --> 01:12:50,620 I'm here because I got caught up in thinking it was all about me. 726 01:12:52,080 --> 01:12:56,540 I tried to hide the demons when I returned from deployments, and then I 727 01:12:56,540 --> 01:12:59,380 selfishly put her through even more when we lost our son. 728 01:13:02,220 --> 01:13:05,140 You know, I can still hear them. 729 01:13:06,860 --> 01:13:07,860 See him. 730 01:13:08,700 --> 01:13:09,700 Feel him. 731 01:13:11,100 --> 01:13:12,880 I can even smell him sometimes. 732 01:13:15,840 --> 01:13:19,980 I'm not the hero of my story, and I have to somehow accept that. 733 01:13:22,140 --> 01:13:28,760 Being in rehab is like being behind that wall in Iraq when we were pinned down 734 01:13:28,760 --> 01:13:29,760 taking heavy fire. 735 01:13:31,180 --> 01:13:35,200 We had to get to some armored vehicles, or we were gonna die. 736 01:13:36,720 --> 01:13:40,340 And the thought of running through that shitstorm was scary as fuck. 737 01:13:41,420 --> 01:13:42,860 Here, I'm safe. 738 01:13:43,440 --> 01:13:47,540 But the reality is, I have to go back out into that firefight. 739 01:13:48,280 --> 01:13:49,520 And that scares me. 740 01:13:52,160 --> 01:13:55,380 My name is Brad Johnson, and I'm an addict. 741 01:14:01,940 --> 01:14:03,480 Wow, look at you. 742 01:14:03,940 --> 01:14:04,940 Yeah. 743 01:14:05,390 --> 01:14:06,970 They got a volunteer that comes by. 744 01:14:08,730 --> 01:14:09,730 You hungry? 745 01:14:10,350 --> 01:14:12,270 Starving. Food here sucks. 746 01:14:14,530 --> 01:14:15,530 How's it going? 747 01:14:16,750 --> 01:14:17,750 It's going. 748 01:14:18,330 --> 01:14:24,370 Hey, you'll be happy to know that the guy that lives next to me is a pansexual 749 01:14:24,370 --> 01:14:26,070 Satanist. Is he cute? 750 01:14:27,990 --> 01:14:29,790 I actually feel bad for the kid. 751 01:14:30,430 --> 01:14:32,970 He's like 25, and this is his fourth time. 752 01:14:33,410 --> 01:14:34,410 Oh. 753 01:14:34,910 --> 01:14:35,910 Jesus. Yeah. 754 01:14:36,950 --> 01:14:37,970 Thank you, by the way. 755 01:14:39,330 --> 01:14:41,370 Oh, please. The sandwiches were two for one. 756 01:14:42,310 --> 01:14:45,870 No, for floating the bill on all this stuff. 757 01:14:46,690 --> 01:14:47,690 It's nothing. 758 01:14:50,190 --> 01:14:51,190 Two more weeks? 759 01:14:54,050 --> 01:14:55,050 Two more weeks. 760 01:14:57,050 --> 01:15:00,130 Have you ever heard the saying, to forgive others, you must first forgive 761 01:15:00,130 --> 01:15:01,130 yourself? 762 01:15:02,890 --> 01:15:08,310 I've thought a lot about what happened to you when Mom kicked you out. 763 01:15:10,730 --> 01:15:12,850 You didn't ask for any of that. 764 01:15:14,030 --> 01:15:20,930 A couple nights ago, I was praying that I could find a 765 01:15:20,930 --> 01:15:26,670 way to forgive myself and deal with all of this guilt. 766 01:15:29,210 --> 01:15:30,570 And when I woke up... 767 01:15:32,080 --> 01:15:35,420 It was like breathing for the first time. 768 01:15:35,960 --> 01:15:39,960 Maybe I just needed some time being sober, or maybe it was God. 769 01:15:43,140 --> 01:15:47,660 I guess what I'm trying to say is I understand why you left. 770 01:15:48,680 --> 01:15:52,240 Please forgive me for not understanding sooner. 771 01:16:11,290 --> 01:16:12,290 Cheers. Hey. 772 01:16:13,370 --> 01:16:14,410 Marley? Hey, Brad. 773 01:16:15,010 --> 01:16:16,770 No, actually, you're right on time. Have a seat. 774 01:16:19,250 --> 01:16:21,430 So, this is it. 775 01:16:22,490 --> 01:16:23,490 How do you feel? 776 01:16:24,750 --> 01:16:26,670 Optimistic. I'll take optimistic. 777 01:16:28,960 --> 01:16:30,900 SEAL community really pulled through for you. 778 01:16:32,340 --> 01:16:35,120 I wish more veterans who came through here were so lucky. 779 01:16:36,380 --> 01:16:41,140 In there, you'll find the address and keys for your new apartment, of which 780 01:16:41,140 --> 01:16:42,400 the first six months is covered, 781 01:16:43,220 --> 01:16:46,940 a bus pass for a year, details for your new job. 782 01:16:47,520 --> 01:16:51,600 There's also a food gift card to help you get by until your first paycheck. 783 01:16:56,680 --> 01:16:58,860 Can you imagine if I screw this up? 784 01:16:59,300 --> 01:17:01,820 It would be worse than owing money to the mob. 785 01:17:02,040 --> 01:17:04,120 I wouldn't want a bunch of Navy SEALs out to get me. 786 01:17:07,220 --> 01:17:08,260 You have a sponsor. 787 01:17:09,440 --> 01:17:10,440 Use him. 788 01:17:11,560 --> 01:17:12,560 You can do this. 789 01:17:13,640 --> 01:17:15,220 A day at a time. 790 01:17:28,799 --> 01:17:30,640 So, uh, need a ride? 791 01:17:31,620 --> 01:17:34,640 Yeah, I do. All right. Let's go. Okay. 792 01:17:37,080 --> 01:17:39,380 I smile because you're my brother. 793 01:17:43,400 --> 01:17:48,580 All right. 794 01:17:48,860 --> 01:17:50,220 We'll end up covered in glitter. 795 01:17:51,280 --> 01:17:52,280 Let's get out of here. 796 01:18:24,440 --> 01:18:25,440 Brad. 797 01:18:26,600 --> 01:18:27,600 Hey, Brad. 798 01:18:28,380 --> 01:18:30,380 Got a call on line three. Make it quick. 799 01:18:30,720 --> 01:18:31,720 Okay. 800 01:18:40,650 --> 01:18:41,650 This is Brad. 801 01:18:51,450 --> 01:18:52,450 Okay. 802 01:18:53,210 --> 01:18:55,890 Yeah, I know where that, it's not that far from where I work. 803 01:18:59,390 --> 01:19:01,570 There's a bench on the south side. 804 01:19:05,890 --> 01:19:06,890 Okay. 805 01:19:44,490 --> 01:19:45,490 All right if I sit? 806 01:19:48,110 --> 01:19:49,110 Yeah, of course. 807 01:19:52,030 --> 01:19:53,030 Thanks. 808 01:19:54,890 --> 01:19:55,950 So are you a writer now? 809 01:19:57,990 --> 01:19:59,010 I don't know, trying. 810 01:19:59,830 --> 01:20:01,090 Mind if I ask what you're writing about? 811 01:20:01,910 --> 01:20:05,410 It's a manifesto of sorts. 812 01:20:05,790 --> 01:20:07,570 Just a bunch of thoughts I'm going to share in AA. 813 01:20:08,270 --> 01:20:09,270 Oh, how's that going? 814 01:20:10,230 --> 01:20:11,230 Good. 815 01:20:11,430 --> 01:20:12,430 It's a... 816 01:20:13,200 --> 01:20:14,480 I get my bronze chips soon. 817 01:20:16,600 --> 01:20:17,599 It's a year. 818 01:20:17,600 --> 01:20:18,600 A year sober. 819 01:20:19,900 --> 01:20:20,900 Congratulations, Brad. 820 01:20:23,620 --> 01:20:24,620 Here. 821 01:20:26,160 --> 01:20:27,160 Keep it. 822 01:20:27,540 --> 01:20:30,220 Just save me the embarrassment of reading it now. 823 01:20:30,900 --> 01:20:32,200 I think you'll find it interesting. 824 01:20:32,980 --> 01:20:34,340 But don't you need it for your meeting? 825 01:20:34,560 --> 01:20:35,960 I got it on the old computer. 826 01:20:43,700 --> 01:20:44,920 So, you're pregnant. 827 01:20:45,420 --> 01:20:46,420 Yeah. 828 01:20:47,180 --> 01:20:49,360 I'm obviously not as young as when we had Cody. 829 01:20:50,540 --> 01:20:53,940 If something falls to the ground, it's staying there. I am not picking it up. 830 01:20:56,280 --> 01:20:59,020 Very ready for this little girl to be out. 831 01:21:00,280 --> 01:21:01,280 That's great. 832 01:21:04,600 --> 01:21:09,180 So, your brother has been giving me some updates. 833 01:21:11,920 --> 01:21:13,360 Hey, he's really a good guy. 834 01:21:14,160 --> 01:21:15,540 Yeah, he is. 835 01:21:16,240 --> 01:21:18,500 And he basically saved my life. 836 01:21:19,360 --> 01:21:23,460 Just wrapping my head around the whole gay thing, you know? 837 01:21:24,420 --> 01:21:25,640 Getting better with it. 838 01:21:27,480 --> 01:21:29,220 Accepting people for who they really are. 839 01:21:30,800 --> 01:21:31,980 I'm proud of you, Brad. 840 01:21:34,560 --> 01:21:38,000 So I'm moving to Atlanta soon. 841 01:21:38,360 --> 01:21:39,740 Oh, really? What for? 842 01:21:42,830 --> 01:21:43,870 It's me moving on. 843 01:21:45,990 --> 01:21:47,170 I'm happy for you. 844 01:21:51,530 --> 01:21:56,750 This is a restless little sucker. 845 01:21:57,350 --> 01:21:58,350 Do you want to feel? 846 01:22:02,770 --> 01:22:04,990 Do you remember the first time that Cody kicked? 847 01:22:13,420 --> 01:22:20,040 So, um, the real reason that I wanted to see you is, um, 848 01:22:20,260 --> 01:22:26,460 the insurance settlement finally came through. 849 01:22:28,540 --> 01:22:30,820 I hope it's enough to get you started in Atlanta. 850 01:22:35,740 --> 01:22:37,240 You did everything right. 851 01:22:39,580 --> 01:22:41,580 You never deserved what I put you through. 852 01:22:44,080 --> 01:22:45,880 I just didn't know how to live without him. 853 01:22:46,920 --> 01:22:51,260 And the guilt, the guilt was just so endless. 854 01:22:52,700 --> 01:22:55,500 Everything reminded me of him, even you. 855 01:22:58,640 --> 01:23:04,880 I probably took the longest road to get to this point, but by the grace of God, 856 01:23:05,020 --> 01:23:08,760 I found a way to forgive myself. 857 01:23:10,480 --> 01:23:11,760 Will you forgive me too? 858 01:23:16,680 --> 01:23:18,220 I did that a long time ago. 859 01:23:25,520 --> 01:23:27,920 Are you okay? Yeah. 860 01:23:30,460 --> 01:23:33,560 I just never know if it's the baby or if I actually have to pee. 861 01:23:34,980 --> 01:23:36,140 I'll be right back, okay? 862 01:23:36,500 --> 01:23:37,500 Okay. 863 01:25:04,970 --> 01:25:05,970 Are you okay? 864 01:25:09,590 --> 01:25:10,070 There 865 01:25:10,070 --> 01:25:20,830 you 866 01:25:20,830 --> 01:25:21,830 are. 867 01:25:26,290 --> 01:25:33,090 Ever since 868 01:25:33,090 --> 01:25:34,270 I was a little boy, 869 01:25:35,630 --> 01:25:37,430 I've had dreams about being chased. 870 01:25:40,190 --> 01:25:42,090 I never knew what was chasing me. 871 01:25:43,870 --> 01:25:46,170 But I know now I don't have to run. 872 01:25:48,370 --> 01:25:50,890 I'm willing to accept the things I cannot change. 873 01:25:51,890 --> 01:25:54,390 And I don't have to be the hero of my story. 874 01:25:56,650 --> 01:25:57,690 Because that's you. 875 01:26:00,890 --> 01:26:04,730 One day, I will hold our son in my arms again. 876 01:26:05,650 --> 01:26:07,950 And I will be the man he wanted to grow up to be. 877 01:26:09,610 --> 01:26:13,210 And if I had to guess, unfortunately, cats go to heaven. 878 01:26:13,730 --> 01:26:16,390 So he's probably got a million of them just to irritate me. 879 01:26:17,890 --> 01:26:21,910 I know I've got a lot of work ahead, and it's not going to be a cakewalk. 880 01:26:23,470 --> 01:26:29,870 But hey, like any Navy SEAL will tell you, the only easy day was yesterday. 881 01:26:38,640 --> 01:26:45,580 But if you told me I never thought I'd see it all this way But 882 01:26:45,580 --> 01:26:51,480 I gave my life to the army But only if they needed There's lots of troubles out 883 01:26:51,480 --> 01:26:58,320 there to use me that way I found that the folks there are just about the same 884 01:26:58,320 --> 01:27:04,540 Just about the same everywhere I go 885 01:27:06,000 --> 01:27:11,680 There's a soccer field in Baghdad. Kids laughing, kicking, and falling, and 886 01:27:11,680 --> 01:27:14,200 rolling, and playing. Keep away. 887 01:27:15,580 --> 01:27:21,140 And they'll run away, and they'll misbehave. But mama's still mama. Yeah, 888 01:27:21,200 --> 01:27:24,380 their mama's whooped their asses just the same. 889 01:27:24,980 --> 01:27:29,160 They found that children, they're just about the same. 890 01:27:30,400 --> 01:27:34,920 Just about the same, maybe we're like. 891 01:27:37,100 --> 01:27:42,420 Kids playing in the yard, riding bikes without their helmets, and old men 892 01:27:42,420 --> 01:27:45,020 laughing over beers and game. 893 01:27:47,080 --> 01:27:52,020 Ladies talking about girls, talking about friendships and girls, and the 894 01:27:52,020 --> 01:27:56,580 simplicity of freedom, dignity, and love.